Evelope darkness.
Embrace lonliness.
All by myself.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
This is my final post for this blog, i believe.As my com has consistenly rejected this website, I've decided to shut it down.A new blog has been made.www.wretch.cc/blog/mglover. This is my new blog web.Feel free to visit it...:DBy the way.... Happy Valentine's Day to all.Sam...
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Weee. Finally i can update update update!Unfortunely, it is not because blogger now loves me but its because im using someone else's com.So...2007. Brand new year, brand new year.Or not?Seriously, the year has been hectic and nothing but that...1st week of school topical tests...then comes to lessons. And lastly, never ending tutorials!The homeworks for one week has been like doubled/tripled as compared to last year's workload.OH yes, i hear the constant voice..*ALEVEL coming*that explains it.And im like dead by end of everyday. Either i go home to have an afternoon nap before completing work.Or when there is no work (due the day after) then i would sleep at 11pm.Goodness, do you how how early is that?!And there are like triple the activities this year.Take dance for example...there was only panorama to care about.And now...what cny(not as if im involved but...), syf, town council....blahs blahs blahs.Oh and dance. 3times a week. latest released at 7.30pm. zzzSo yup, that basically sums up my life since start of the year. School, home, dance.And i wonder, i really dont have a life, do i?Sam...
Monday, December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas to all...Sam... ^___^
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Ah Choo... Ah Choo...AHHHH choo...~
Saturday, December 23, 2006
In less than a week, I will not be sitting in front of this computer anymore...One hour plus ago, I just finished watching Silence. Its a touching love story. Its not the genre i would actually watch, but because of him, I did. But i did not regret it, because i think its a pretty story. Really felt like crying but couldnt because the 2 adults apparently thought they were accompanying me whereas how i wish i could push them into a room and keep them away from me. I really enjoy isolation when im in a world of shows. And i do not like the idea of someone watching me watch the show. Especially...when I wish to cry. Not because i dont want to cry in front of them, but because they would think im stupid to cry because of a fake story. Im never a person who like crowds. I hate the noise. And i hate that feeling. Because I can never be one of them who can breeze through the people and entertain them all the way. I can never speak in a way that make people like me instantly. Nor can i speak comfortably and sensibly outside my circle of friends. Maybe that is why i prefer isolation. However i must say that although i like my own world of isolation, there are times whereby i love to listen. Dont force me to talk, dont question why im so quiet, dont find me weird and lonely, because these are just times where i wish to just listen. No matter how much a person loves loneliness, there is always a time whereby one would welcome the idea of someones comfort.Have no idea why i would say this much about myself here. Maybe you might not think one paragraph is alot but if you know me for long, this self admittance should freak you out. Because its also freaking me out. This self realisation came eons ago but never have i said it out. Im changing. I know it. But this way of exposing part of me, is it a good choice or bad...? You say it.Sam...Sorry for the sudden randomness and switch in subject. ^___^
Monday, December 18, 2006
A few days back, I would have typed... I'm homesick. I miss HOME. I wanna go back.Now that im going back in a few more days, i just wanna say... I will miss this place.I guess no matter how much i dislike a place, there are always positive qualities in it that attracts me. No matter how much i wish to leave, there are always feelings attached to it. I guess as long as there is a relaxed lifestyle or some things that you yearn for in that country, you will definetly miss it. Maybe not wanting to stay there permanently...but someday, i will want to come back and visit and experiment it again. One day, i might be lying on the bed, recollecting all that happened. And that is the time when i will revisit again.I will miss Paris and London. I am missing Auckland and HongKong already. And surprisingly, there is a part of me missing Singapore...( that does not mean i wanna go back any sooner though) Maybe its because of the friends there. Without them, i guess there would no longer be anymore yearning and no longer any qualities that attracts me. For now, i will just continue my remaining (holi) days and enjoy myself before a hectic (and disastrous) year ahead.P.S I REALLY WANT TO GO BACK TO HKG AND WISH I CAN SPEND LONGER DAYS THERE! Why cant holidays be extended......Sammie up.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Currently, Im situated in Paris. And the time now is 6.30pm. Am waiting to go for dinner while typing this.My 2nd time here (based on my memory) and still, its not one of my favorite countries.I dislike the fact that ppl here speak french and only french. Every word is in french too. I just dont like to be in a place where i dont understand and cant communicate.Secondly, i dont like places that take ages to travel. From here to Village, it took me 45mins. To carrefour, 20mins. I haven been into Paris city but i can just imagine the distance and time...Lastly, the things are in EUROS. Goodness, everything is so expensive. From food to clothes...Although the numbers are small and makes u feel its cheap, but try moving a decimal for hkg dollars and times 2 for sg dollars. The price makes me repulsive...And my final note is... I still love HKG for its cheap shopping and Singapore for its yummilicious cheap food. Shall try and enjoy my time here although its tough. But TA-TA for now.Sammmmmm.
the reminiscer
Samantha
B.A.II
14.11.89
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