Evelope darkness.
Embrace lonliness.
All by myself.
OMG cant believe the week has finally officially ended! But hey...bad news for myself. Homework none done. Woah. Lets see my list of work.1. 2 chinese comprehension2. GP reading log3. Lit journal4. Econs project5. GPP6.MUST read FINISH GE and HMT.and well...the list just gets longer..... Runway turned out quite smoothly other then a little technical errors, some miscommunications and well, sudden errors. Overall not bad i hope? Heard its was 85% full. Wonder if there will be another one next year? Oh but then i guess its cause of the air con, kinda hot and stuffy, so was feeling highly irritated after the runway. Was cursing and bitching all the way to TMALL for dinner. And yep, 2 days of dance over. I seriously am putting in effort! But then, what can i do if i am a slow learner?! Went back to ESSS speech day. Realised they only called me back. Thought they would at least call jasmine but apparently no. So yup, only one wearing TPJC uni, kinda weird. And i took 2 prizes. HAHA. $500 mph vouchers. Seriously i doubt i would need that much! But im determined to spend it this year. Realised that over the years, all my vouchers expired with me not spending them at all. Should frame them up! Overall the school spend more on speech day i suppose. They changed to glass window panels but seriously, they should just install air con. They changed the fan too. To something worse then before. No wind at all! Somemore i wearing blazer. Gonna boil! Anyway, i hope the school does consider installing air cons for impt events like such. I mean, you see the parents come in and fan themself throughout. Unsightly and pathetic. Anyway, the concert was also great. There is circus acts by juniors this year. And im impressed by choir. They seriously do better without us. Small but loud. Good for them. Reception was held in foyer. Everyone ended up eating whether you are supposed to or not. The food was not bad...! For once. Hahas. Then Ms Wong sent me home. With Benson Tay and Ms Teh.. Opps its MDM Teh now. First time see them hold hands hahas. Married also no inform us! Bad ppl! LOls.OH YA! After saying i took art, Benson asked if Mr Daniel Kok is my teacher. IN the end, realised they are JC mates. Wahahas. Talk about coincidences. So he asked me send his regards. And i will provided i remember~Emo-ing period still. I realised i have nothing much to talk about, or rather, dont wish to communicate with ppl that are once close to me. Is it because i dont wanna hang on to the past? Or because i cant bear to see the ppl once close have now become distant so i rather walk away first? Either or i dont know. Seriously, no one can ever accompany me through a phrase of life and remain with me throughout. I have come to a realisation that i might be a loner and always will be. Maybe its my character. Maybe its because i cant communicate well. Maybe its because of my farcade. Maybe its just that i dont have 'ren yuan'. Maybes. I dont know what will become of me 10 years down the road. Will there even be friends by my side? I will never know till then.'SAM IS DEAD.
the reminiscer
Samantha
B.A.II
14.11.89
Scopion
