Evelope darkness.
Embrace lonliness.
All by myself.
THANK GOD I CAN USE MY INTERNET AGAIN!Damn the router that caused this prob. I hate the router! Just when i have fri off too...THis happened! Make my weekend damn useless.
Ok, so yup now SAM is BACK. Hahahs. And i really think im in a state of confusion now. What i think what i do all has mixed emotions and feelings. Talk about complications. And damn. I feel empty, hollow and all that crap. What in the world do i deserved this? Maybe its fate that im born like this. Born to have a face a personality that everyone dislikes. Seriously, people just hates me. I hate myself too. That must be the reason why. Hell i know my work is piling up. I have uncompleted PI, econs project, 2 bks to read and all other craps. But why do i feel that i have done nothing at all. I'm a useless leader seriously. I cant do anything. Damn i hate myself more. I feel the pressure and stress coming up but im not doing anything about it. Why is that so? Is it because of my attitude. Maybe this is the reason why. Maybe its coz im lazy. Whatever. I am concerned. I wanna care about my work but my brain just dont allow me to do so. Talk about it. Sucks.Actually come to think of it. I'm losing myself. Succumb to being not me. I hate myself. I should be glad to finally destroy myself. But why can i always feel my heart cry out and the tear that stings my eyes every minute i changed. Do i want to be me or not. I dont know. Am i already being buried whole and alive. Or have i been dead all these while? Am i dead? This post is incoherent and is just another of my blabberings. I seriously dont know if im making sense. But its ok. I never ever make sense. Everything that i say is just crap that dont weight and affect anything but myself.Samantha
the reminiscer
Samantha
B.A.II
14.11.89
Scopion
